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Apr 14

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happy birthday, love

happy birthday firman shantyabudi!

i wish you all the best and every happiness known to man :*

oh. and i wish one day both of us can take a stroll down the streets of london (amen. oh dear God, amen.)

p.s : in case anybody wondering here’s list of my gift

-3 british handmade pillow (yesssss, it’s handmade darling.)

-1 photo

-2 custom made shirt

-1 handmade birthday cake

he is indeed one of a kind, deserves one of a kind thingies  

Jan 03

“too bad, we’ll never know for sure how much the other person misses or love us. not even when we asked them straight up. guess the only choice we have is to believe them.”

Dec 31

aku ini sudah terbiasa sekali merindu.
waktu kecil, aku rindu mainan-mainan lama yang ibu paksa untuk disumbangkan.
waktu remaja, aku tumbuh dengan merindukan ayah setiap harinya. rindu yang satu ini, seperti yang pernah aku bilang, kekal.
aku lalu terbiasa merindukan masa lalu yang hanya dapat dijamah oleh doa.
hari ini, seperti biasa, aku sedang merindu.
biarpun terbiasa, rindu selalu terasa luar biasa.

“biarpun biasa, rindu selalu terasa luar biasa.”

Dec 16

(Source: paintedartifact, via blinksoflife)

Dec 13

i hope i can meet all of your expectation, at the very least, i hope i can be enough for you.
i hope to be smart enough, funny enough, cute enough, pretty enough for you. normal enough for you.
i’m not perfect, i know. at some point i’m not even normal. i have hell of a baggage to carry. but, please, bear with me.
i pray for us to be good, for us to try as hard as we can to stay.
happy one month anniversary, ndut :)

Dec 12

Dec 05

i was wrong. it should’ve never about getting over you, it’s about accepting the fact. and be at peace with it.
it’s not easy, not for me, not for anybody. it takes some struggle and achy nights, but eventually i get to the part that i’ve known all the facts and realizing it and accept it. and move the fuck on :)

Nov 25

“never mind i’ll find someone like you, i wish nothing but the best for you too.” — :)